ex

i went jogging last tuesday night. i saw ex in front of our house, buying his merienda. i haven't seen him passing by our house since last week. then, when i opened the gate, my head turned to the left as if looking for someone. when i turned on the other side, i saw him sitting on the bench staring at me. i was caught, then i saw D and told my son that i'll just jog. escape :-)

then, this morning, his friend greeted me a happy birthday. i asked him, "paano mo nalaman?", "sinabi ni B, nakita nga daw niya ikaw na nagjojogging nakakasura ano..."
sabi ko, "no, wag ganoon, masama yon."

should i blame myself for what happened to B? it was his decision, he knows his faults and mistakes. i got tired already. the only mistake that i did was when i fell in love with his friend. now, i'm sorry to say this, my spouse.

but still, he loves me more that what D is showing me and i can say that first love never dies... but i know, we will never be together.

i'm not like them.