bawal

A married friend who is desperate for affection, company, conversation, etc. etc. is having an affair with a married man.

I cannot blame her for marrying a guy who lacks mental maturity, who swallows his pride and has no financial responsibility because he really cannot afford it. Knowing his state of educational qualifications and the way he was raised, it was her who takes charge.

But, this thing that gives her sanity is wrong. She justifies her wrong doings and she's happy. I have never seen her this happy.

Oh well, I always warn her and she's not my responsibility.

with my friends

Lately, when I have my drinking sprees with my friends, he wants to tag along. There was a time when he got mad at me because I do not want him to go with us.

During the session, he blurted out that he is happy that I do not bother to check on him anymore. I do not know if that statement is good or bad. Good, because you are trusting me again or bad...I can continue my escapades without you pestering me.

In this trial, I was able to know myself more and learn things to improve myself more.

my fate

I am trying to accept things the way they are! Whether good or bad.

Later on, I will have a life of my own.

happy????!!!!

I have a stable state of mind since last week. I can feel that there are changes and my man is true to his words... or I just feel... what the heck! Stop punishing myself and I might get cancer.

Be happy!There are worst things than infidelity. That is according to Hillary Clinton. hehehe

school status

P's sped teacher called because they do not have classes. I ask how P is in school. Beautiful music rang into my ears. P is very participative in class, he has a lot of friends alreay...etc.etc. My son can easily adjust just do not bang on his weakness and his symtoms will all burst out. hehehe

father's day

D is not keen on celebrating special occasions. So, to break the pattern. I gave him a gift for the event. I gave him a shades that he looked at when we were in TriNoma. He held it for 30 seconds then put it back in the rack.

The next day... I went back to the store and bought it one week before father's day.

For the first time, there was no tension in gift giving because he liked what I gave him.

It's a man's world.

from Bill Gates

He said.. Life is unfair. Get used to it.
Nobody cares about your self-esteem.

So move on Pau.... it is only you who can make a difference.

NOBODY CARES!

sulitxt

I checked on his sulitext balance versus the number of items in the sent message folder. It was not compatible. Meaning, there were erased messages sent to the same subscriber.

Huli but again.... he's my denial king.

Why can't people be honest and man enough to admit his wrongdoings?

I was asking for his explanations. Wala na daw sila. PERIOD!

I doubt it. Or I am just paranoid.

m said

Don't let a man ruin your life.

SWAK!

suicidal

I hate to entertain this thought. But when I am heavily depress and my hormones are giddy giddy yak yak yak... it is my constant companion. My nerves in my brain are sending messages that makes me more vulnerable and lonely. But... I have to fight this evil dominion. I have to live for my kids. I am their savior to be able to live happily in this cruel world.

But suicidal thoughts are like gums that the more you read or learn that someone committed suicide, it give you a certain appreciation or high that you can also do it. It is a chain reaction... if she can, i can also do it... she also has kids. But at least, when sanity comes into me. I still think of my boys specially P who has ADHD.

I am in a constant battle, I hope I will win in this war.

nice meeting you!

I met her. The other or should I say the past girl in my man's life. That's what D said. We were passing by the court when I saw D's car park near the place where C's friends stay. I asked A if D was there. I entered and saw her. I just said, I finally meet you. Hindi ako manggugulo. I was calm but when I saw D, siya ang pinaglabasan ko ng hinala ko.

Now, there are really some people who are proud of the actions that they make. Whether good or bad. It's a different world nowadays.

Siguro, this phase will end all my sufferings and change my attitude in this kind of problem.